Krystal's Mountain
“For still the vision awaits its appointed time; it hastens to the end—it will not lie. If it seems slow, wait for it; it will surely come; it will not delay.”
Habakkuk 2:3~ English Standard Version
The Mountain
My mountain in motherhood was becoming a mother in the first place. I got married at age 33 and my husband and I wanted to start a family. Years before, I had been diagnosed with poly cystic ovary syndrome (PCOS). A hormonal disorder causing enlarged ovaries with small cysts on the outer edges. It causes infertility and weight gain. A symptom of PCOS is irregular periods which causes infrequent ovulation due to hormonal imbalances.
My husband and I tried for 4 months to get pregnant on our own, the old fashion way and ended up pregnant. We were so excited and happy we were going to have a baby. At our 20 week prenatal appointment, we found out we were having a boy during the ultrasound and were overjoyed! Our obstetrician told us once you get to 20 weeks the odds of anything happening to the baby were low. The next day I went into preterm labor and lost the baby.
We were devastated! My husband and I were so sad and disappointed. Our family and friends called, visited, and gave us encouraging words. We leaned on our faith in God and looked to Him to help us understand why this happened to us. It was the most painful experience either of us had gone through. About 2 weeks after the miscarriage, we met with one of the associate ministers at our church for counseling and prayer. This session made us feel a lot better, but we were still down.
We waited a year before trying to get pregnant again. We tried getting pregnant on our own, but nothing was happening. We went to see my gynecologist, and I started taking medicine prescribed by my gynecologist to help me ovulate regularly for six months but, unfortunately, we did not get pregnant. She then recommended we go to an infertility specialist. During this time, we felt a little discouraged at times because we were ready to have a baby. It wasn’t as easy as we thought it would be, but we kept the faith that God would make us parents.
We then started the process of artificial insemination which involved me taking pills and shots weekly and me doing blood work to check my hormone levels weekly. The medicine caused hot flashes and mood swings, but I kept going so we could have a baby one day. I felt like a pen cushion some days from being stuck with so many needles for blood work. My husband had to give a sperm specimen and I had some eggs extracted for the artificial insemination. The first try wasn’t successful. The second time was, but the baby didn’t have a heartbeat at 6 weeks. As a result, I had to take some medicine to expel the baby from my body which was another blow to our dreams of having a baby. We waited three months and tried the artificial insemination again. It was successful, but at 16 weeks at a prenatal appointment we were told the baby’s head was growing faster than it should and his heart had two holes in it and therefore wouldn’t survive. We ended up having a DNC (Dilatation and Curettage) which was pretty traumatic. My husband and I took a month off of work, to focus on our mental health, and take time out to concentrate on each other.
Two years later, we got pregnant on our own. After a two weeks stay in the NICU, we finally bought our bundle of joy home named Cameron Collin Hulett. He came 6 weeks early due to me being induced for labor because I had preeclampsia. Our miracle baby was born 4 pounds and 6 ounces, but was healthy and strong. He is now measuring normal height and weight with lots of energy. God is good!
The Message
The message is God’s timing is not ours! He taught us to keep the faith and He will give us the desires of our hearts.
Always remember your mind is very strong.
I told myself I will be a Mom by age 40 and I did. I did the work by losing some weight and eating healthier, preparing myself to get pregnant and have a successful pregnancy.
It took us 7 years to become parents but it was worth it! Seven is a significant number in the Bible. God is faithful! A blessing delayed, but not denied!
My advice to any couple that goes through a miscarriage is to make sure the man receives as much support as the woman. My husband later told me he felt all of my family and friends supported me emotionally, but he didn’t receive as much support. People expect the man to be strong, but it is emotionally draining on the man also. We both were up and down on the roller coaster to parenthood. So glad we made it!
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